Mental Health Providers:: Can Sometimes Be Unnecessarily Difficult

Dear Mental Health Providers,

Clinic Receptionists, Clinicians 

and Nurses,

The whole reason why I am seeking help, 

therapy and medication is simple: 

I want to feel better.

I have actively just drove 1600 miles from my beautiful home and significant other to seek mental help in my hometown state. I have also, since the temporary move: set up an appointment with my psychiatrist, religiously studied about my specific disorder as well as how to cope with it/medications for the disorder, joined a mental health forum, etc...

I am not the person who wants to be on a handful of pills that make me groggy or high. I'm not happy about the fact that 

I may have to

take a handful of pills for the rest of my life in order to keep my moods in check and also keeping them from ruining my personal health and relationships...

I am consciously seeking, in every way, to get help. Get better.

Your job is to work with and around sick people.

People with illnesses and diseases that they never had a choice in. It's not our fault that sometimes we don't feel right the day after a new pill. It's okay for us to call you in a situation that seems to us: 

an emergency. 

Feel free to ask questions. I'm not against your questioning. I just ask that you respect my feelings. When I read over the medication print outs that you give me (That's right. I read them!) 

I pay special attention when it says,

'Check with your doctor immediately if any of the following side effects occur while taking -INSERT NAME OF MEDICATION HERE-' 

And when I am experiencing one of the following and I have been giving simple directions to follow: I listen.

I apologize for calling you several times in a row;

(you connected me to the wrong nurse twice.)

I apologize that I didn't come across 'clear' and that I was sobbing uncontrollably and that I kept asking you questions that you could not specifically answer;

(my mind was racing and I was so scared.)

When I call you: I'm not perfect, and I know that. 

I'm far from it...

Just don't forget your job.

Thank You.

-Amber Rose